lauantai 19. helmikuuta 2011

Eat Pray Love - Omaa tietä etsimässä

Elokuva Eat Pray Love - Omaa tietä etsimässä sopii nykyiseen elämänvaiheeseeni kuin nappi silmään. Se kertoo naisesta, joka huomaakin ettei ole tyytyväinen nykyiseen elämäänsä ja päättää jättää entisen elämänsä löytääkseen itsensä taas uudestaan.

Tuo elokuva avasi silmäni nykytilanteeseeni sekä myös menneisyyteeni. Elokuvan myötä tajusin että olen ollut lievästi masentunut jo useamman vuoden ajan. Olen yrittänyt pyristellä pinnalla pitäen kaikesta kiinni etten vajoaisi synkkyyteen. Samalla olen unohtanut kuka oikeasti olen ja millainen olen. Olen ollut hukkumaisillani kaikkeen pahaan ja tuskaan mitä elämässäni on tullut vastaan. Tämä avioero huuhtoo pahat asiat pois, kunhan vain annan sille tilaisuuden enkä haudo niitä mielessäni. Pelastuakseni minun on löydettävä taas oma tasapainoni, elämäniloni. Se mitä olin ennen masennusta.
Olen kiitollinen meidän yhteisistä vuosista. Annan anteeksi viimeiset kolme vuotta. Sieluni on valmis jättämään pahat taakseen ja siirtymään elämässäni seuraavaan vaiheeseen.

A friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. It's called the Augusteum. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains.
When the barbarians came they trashed it a long with everything else. The great Augustus, Rome's first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. It's one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome.
The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won't let go of because it hurts too good.
We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins.
Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it.
Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.

Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself.

Everything falls apart, my dear. The only thing permanent in life is family.

You wanna get to the castle, Groceries, you got to swim the moat.

You have to learn to select your thoughts the way you select your clothes every day. That’s a power you can cultivate. You wanna come here and control your life so bad, work on the mind. That’s the only thing you should control.If you can’t master your thoughts, you’re in trouble.

― So you fell in love with someone.
― l really miss him.
― So miss him. Send him some light and love every time you think of him, then drop it.

If you could clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using to obsess over this guy and your failed marriage, you’d have a vacuum with a doorway. And you know what the universe would do with that doorway? Rush in. God would rush in. Fill you with more love than you ever dreamed of.

Waiting for him to forgive you is a damn waste of time, Groceries. Forgive yourself.

So the holy truth of the whole adventure here in India is in one line: God dwells within you as you.

Smile with face. Smile with mind. Even smile in liver.

People in Bali understand in order to stay happy, must always know where you are every moment. Right here is perfect balance. Right at meeting of heaven and earth. Not too much God, not too much selfish. Otherwise, life too crazy. You lose balance, you lose power.

Only way to heal is to trust. This okay. To have broken heart mean you have tried for something.

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